LONGER interview under! Demi revealed to E! News: ‘I wasn’t going to continue to be alive if I continued to treat my body the way I was.. It’s a daily journey and it’s definitely going to be a struggle that I’ll have to deal with for the rest of my life. Sometimes I think, ‘Why couldn’t I have been normal?’
..I’m not going to be perfect, but.. if I can make it through the day, that’s all that matters.’ Her voice was weaker because she was ‘ruining it by damaging it after every meal,’ and then rerecorded ‘Skyscraper’ after undergoing treatment. ‘It just didn’t feel the same, so we kept the original one. For me it was, so symbolic..
It being the song I recorded before treatment & yet it was providing a message. It’s so crazy the way things played out, that it ended up being my symbol and it represented what I am trying to spread the word about, getting help and rising above any issues that [I and] my fans are dealing with. When I sang it for the first time I year I just pouring tears in the studio. I was doubled over, just in pain.
I remember thinking, This is kind of my cry for help back then, because I hadn’t spoken to anyone about these issues and I hadn’t gotten the help that I needed.’ Skyscraper video features Demi standing in the desert, dressed all in white, her makeup subtle and her feet mostly bare.
‘There were so many things that represented my addictions and eating disorders and self-harm. When I’m unraveling this black fabric, It was the toxicity took over my mind for so long, that oozed out of every pore that I had..
Because I was suffering inside.. I’m taking it off and walking on broken glass & powering through it. That video was an emotional release for me, like therapy.. I kept crying, I was so emotionally invested.. & That’s when I realized, that’s what music videos are all about.’