Troian Bellisario ‘I Had Eating Disorder’

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Pretty Little Liars actress, Troian Bellisario revealed in her tell-all Seventeen Magazine interview (she will be on the cover of February’s issue) that she was so overcome with trying to be a grade-A student and please her parents that she spiraled down a very dangerous, self-destructive path involving an eating disorder & self-harm:

I started self-harming when I was a junior. I would withhold food or withhold going out with my friends, based on how well I did that day in school. Being a teenager is chaotic because you’re kind of coming into your own. I didn’t know what was right and what was wrong, so I think I created this bizarre system of checks and balances to create order in my world. But it really backfired.’

The 28-year-old says studying at a ‘very intense’ college prep school sent her over the edge as she worked herself into a ball of stress trying to remain a ‘perfect little girl’ in her parents’ eyes. ‘It was about wanting to please my father and mother and wanting to be perfect to everybody. I just thought if I ever expressed [to my parents] any sadness or anger or anything that’s going on with me, they would disown me. I kept a lot of it bottled up inside, and it turned into self-destructive behavior. I felt this sadness, and I thought if people really knew what was going on inside me, they wouldn’t want to hang out with me. So I tried to keep it light and funny. I became imprisoned [by my eating disorder and self-harm]. And it was something I fought with.’
That self-destructive behaviour continued until her friends stepped in, staging an intervention that changed the course of her life. They got a hold of my journal and basically said, “We don’t trust you, and we’re gonna tell your parents.” That was when my world kind of exploded. It was kind of like an intervention. It made me ask myself, “What do I really want to be doing? What would make me happy?”‘
Speaking of her life now, in the spotlight, the star insists every day is ‘an ongoing struggle’, though she has her ways of dealing with the stresses that come with fame. ‘Honestly, it’s an ongoing struggle. Especially for a woman on a show that has the word “pretty” in it! Sometimes I feel like I’m trying too hard, like I don’t belong. I just look around at [co-stars] Lucy [Hale], Shay [Mitchell], and Ashley [Benson], and I’m just like, “Why am I on this show?” Sometimes I’ve felt like a fraud. I’m not like these other girls – I don’t dress like that and I don’t know how to do my hair,’ she continues. ‘The minute I’m off that stage, I try to get as “me” as possible. I do that by piling on my black eyeliner, and I put on my ripped tights. Dressing like myself again helps.’

Pretty Little Liars castmate Lucy Hale was quick to praise her friend for her courage in going public with her struggle.’Everyone check out @SleepintheGardn seventeen mag interview. A very inspiring article. Proud of her for speaking up!’ the aspiring country music singer tweeted her more than 3.3 million followers on Saturday. Of course, the 24-year-old, who plays Aria Montgomery in the hit ABC Family series, knows all too well what her co-star is going through, having revealed in the September 2012 issue of Cosmopolitan magazine that she too had suffered from bad self-image and an eating disorder in the past.

‘I’ve never really talked about this, but I would go days without eating. Or maybe I’d have some fruit and then go to the gym for three hours,’ she admitted. ‘I knew I had a problem… It was a gradual process but I changed myself.’ Ashley Benson also gave a shout out to her ‘inspiring’ pal, writing: ‘Wow babe @SleepintheGardn you inspire me. Your @seventeenmag article is amazing. Not to mention you look amazing on the cover. Congrats.’

  • Queen Amanda Bynes

    i would have never guess, hope she’s better.
    side note , i just found out she was black, i thought she was hispanic for some reason…

    • Guest

      She is of African-American, Italian, Serbian, French, and English descent. She is mixed.

      • Queen Amanda Bynes

        i know , her mom is black, i think her dad is the other stuff, i should have clearifyed what i meant

      • ariasgirl

        if her mom is black ,hes drop rule.

        • thesestrangelittlethings

          You just made yourself sound super ignorant. Please don’t be proud of that.

  • anonymous

    she should not be on a show that requires her to be something that she can’t be without being unhealthy

    • Mhmm

      You should stop talking.

  • anon

    I adore Troian for speaking out about this. It must be really hard to play Spencer bc she’s so obsessive about her grades and such. I’d imagine acting that out all the time would drudge up bad memories. Kinda like a singer who has to sing personal songs all the time. It would hurt. But Troian is an AMAZING actress and she’s so gorgeous and gosh I’ve envied how thin she is for how long now! She’s awesome and I hope she realizes now how awesome she is. <33 I'm so glad her friends cared about her and intervened when they did.

  • May

    I am so in love with this girl <3 I would never have guesses she dealt with something like this because she is so confident now and she's such a beautiful woman. She definitely has grown into an amazing person and I'm so happy that she got better. I look up to her so much <3

  • Cici

    She’s gorgeous. I can not wait for this tuesday

  • Marina And My Diamonds

    It’s so weird because
    Troian is oddly like Spencer, so how much of it is actually acting you know? I really appreciate her opening up about this and even admitting she still struggles a bit. She’s such a beautiful women and I hope one day she can see that for herself.

  • Rosemary

    I always knew there was something about her but I didn’t know what it was.

  • bridget

    It’s sad how much pressure young people at times put on ourselves to be perfect. It’s heartbreaking to hear how she would punish herself for not performing academically in a way that she thought would please her parents. From my experience with my own mother, at times parents don’t understand how much stress their kids are under to excel and how much of that they might accidentally put on them. It’s a hard thing to grasp, but I hope that so many young celebrities like Demi, Lucy, and Troian coming out with their stories make parents more aware of how much pressure is on their kids by society not only to just succeed in school but also to look a certain way, so that they can watch out for and detect this type of unhealthy behavior, and give their kids the support they need to get through their tough time. Much respect to these young women for being brave enough to tell their stories publicly.

  • RedneckAtHeart

    So glad she is speaking up. I hope she stays on the straight and narrow. Love her and can’t wait for the show to be back. I’m going nuts lol.

  • thesestrangelittlethings

    This is why I think she’s amazing.

    • wait

      because she has an eating disorder?….

      • thesestrangelittlethings

        Really? No, because she can go on living life and speak about what she’s gone through. I’m pretty sure you could have figured that out.

      • SamD

        Why is there always someone like you? Ignorant dumbass

  • boystan

    isn’t she on pretty little liars

  • Demi Lovato

    Who is this? Why is she trying to steal my shine?

    • soft ghetto


    • Maggie

      That is completely disrespectful and I’ll have you know that your comment has been flagged and reported. People like you are disgusting

    • -le dead-


  • WatchOut

    I always thougt she is to skinny and she still is really skinny.

  • cerenagee

    Insane, I would have never guessed that. She seems so confident. She’s beautiful too, she really doesn’t need to do that to herself. Very sad. I hope she gets better.

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