Covering her third Vogue cover, but her first for the American edition, Selena Gomez explains the real reason why she cancelled her “Revival Tour” and why the “Queen of Instagram” doesn’t even have the app on her phone.
“Tours are a really lonely place for me,” Selena admits. “My self-esteem was shot. I was depressed, anxious. I started to have panic attacks right before getting onstage, or right after leaving the stage.” Used to performing in front of a younger audience, the singer’s newer and older fans made her feel less wise when talking about certain issues. “And so maybe I thought everybody out there was thinking, This is a waste of time.”
Since leaving rehab, Selena has been on a personal mission to prove how “authentic” she is and that means she no longer worries about Instagram. “As soon as I became the most followed person on Instagram, I sort of freaked out,” Selena says, admitting that her assistant is in control of posting to her account, since she doesn’t even know the password. “I always end up feeling like shit when I look at Instagram. Which is why I’m kind of under the radar, ghosting it a bit.”
The singer refrained from talking about The Weeknd, but without saying his name mentioned Justin Bieber who would get “very frustrated” with her for taking pictures with fans. Throughout the interview, Selena just seemed content not being in the spotlight and despite loving her career, she “can’t wait for people to forget about me.”
Check out Selena’s first U.S. Vogue cover and more photos below and read the full interview here.
(Photo credits: Vogue Instagram account; Mert Alas)